I kinda miss looking forward to things happening. Like there would be some event I'm planning to attend, or a release of a book, or game, or movie, or even some new gadget. Or even a package with parts or PCBs I have ordered. But gradually I came to dread those things. The events became chores, with a guaranteed two weeks of being sick afterwards. Books take too long to come out, and I forget about them. Movies and games are tedious and boring. Gadgets are just all the same with less privacy.